Well, hello there!

It’s been 3 years now, and I think about you all the time. I’ve pondered telling you how I’ve been, what’s been going on and how much I’ve changed. OH, how I’ve changed. Let me start by saying I’ve missed you, with every ounce of my being. Too intense? Good. That still hasn’t changed any.

There’s the biggest difference in my life, I have a son now; he’s two and a half. He would have loved you. He would have found you so interesting and funny and wanted to hold your hand. What a sight that would have been! I bet he’d think you were pretty. Do you ever wonder what it would have been like to be involved with his life? Or mine anymore?

I’m doing better than last we talked. It was a turbulent time. It was hard, and I was difficult to deal with, I’m aware. I’ve let a lot of things go that used to effect me back then. I’ll have you know that I do still create! I paint and fiddle with different mediums when I can. Yes, I’m still terrible at music. I really do my best to keep these creative juices flowing.

As for love, if you’re curious, I’ve been through a few heartaches and grown from them as well. I’ve recently learned how to put myself first. Surprising right? For someone who pushed so hard for other’s acceptance and affection to find it in myself to be okay with being alone and focus on self-care… I’m proud of that. I bet you would be proud of me too.

I know it has been a long time, I bet you’ve changed yourself as well. You were constantly changing while I knew you. I only hope you know I still care, and still think of you.

Maybe I’ll write again soon, but for now, stay golden.